When it doesn’t even matter 

With the suicide of Chester Bennington, depression is once again in the news and the online community is telling let’s talk each other out of it. Nothing can be more hilarious or ridiculous than this. To begin with let me tell you that no one in this world understands depression let alone have a cure for it. You can’t just talk yourself out of it and if you can then it’s not depression it’s sadness or a mood swing. The “doctors” don’t understand even 5 % of how the brain works so they pretty much depend upon trial and error. After all our brain is perhaps the most complex phenomenon in the universe !


Even the drugs psychiatrist’s prescribe are experimental and there is no way to predict the effect it will have on the patient, if at all. The other thing is that once you start on drugs it’s a downward spiral if a dependence is created. A long term use only means increase in dosage which makes you a Zombie – a dead body of sorts. The other fall out is that most drugs themselves cause suicidal tendencies and induce the user to pull the plug on themselves.

But then is there a way out or is it like cancer – once you get it it’s only a matter of time and how your luck plays out on you. The answer is yes and no. It’s a fight and a fight to finish so a lot depends on your own will power – whether you will give up to the endless pain or suffering or you will stretch and endure with no hope or relief in sight. You may get lucky or you may not but there is no way to tell.

As in cancer your own body turns against you, in case of depression your own mind turns against you. And you can’t fight a problem with the same tool with which it was created. Your body can fight external bacteria and virus but it’s difficult for it to fight it’s own cells which have kind of rebelled and one cell does not know if the other cell is an enemy or a friend. Still the problem is pathological, physical so at least you can see the damage as it happens and try to do something about it whether it works or not is a different thing. In depression you can’t even see the damage you can only feel it but then how to show it to other people ? There is no measure of intensity of clinical depression – stage 1 and stage 4 can happen simultaneously within the span of a week or even within the same day. 

Om Swami in his book “When all is not well” has taken a systematic yogic approach to dealing with depression. But even he treats each case individually in his book and does not have a scalable one cure fits all model. His approach loosely hinges on working towards a healthy mind and body but it’s no way prescriptive. There are a lot of factors which may be contributing to depression and he tries to experiment by taking some or all of them away and then start working on rebuilding the entire personality. It is a long road with no guarantee if success except the Guru’s grace. In almost all cases the Guru’s grace prevails if there is enough devotion. 

I have to end this post now else I will just keep writing but the moot point is that the online crap out there doesn’t know shit about this and so do your friends and family. There is hope for you only if you can take it upon yourself. It is quite a winding road with many dangers and surprises but the destination is beautiful and worth it. If you just hang in there, keep doing what you must and don’t give up no matter what, One day the clouds will disappear and you will see the clear blue skies.  Trust me. 

To quote Faiz :

दिल नाउम्मीद नहीं नाकाम ही तो है

लंबी है ग़म की शाम मगर शाम ही तो है..


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