I celebrated my blogs anniversary on the 30th November 09 but kept awfully busy the next 15-20 days so could not get time to even celebrate this glorious moment.
Through the year I have got a lot of encouragement not only from fellow bloggers but also from the public at large – folks who do not know me and still care to read my writing and comment on it from across the world.Cheers !
Actually the people I know including some who claim to be quite close have been a big disappointment but it doesn’t matter.
Few numbers just for the heck of it :
1. Total number of hits – 33349
2.Visitors from across the globe as per clustermaps
3.Google page rank of 2 ( not too impressive but not too bad either for a personal blog)
4.Alexa rating of 3.5
5. 47th rank among all blogs posted by Indiblogger a forum for Indian blogs
6.I have a total of 210 posts in 6 categories and 416 comments
7.Last but not the least the value of my blog is $ 1175.00 , so I can sell it for Rs 50000 to anyone of you ( if you want that is)
Well what do I say ? its a great feeling – something I created ,something my very own ,something very personal has taken a form that not only acts as a sounding board but is also a true and original friend.
Today I promise my blog that I will come back to it at least once a week and post something.I have stopped looking at the stats anyways so it is easier now.
I was reading the book ‘Predictably irrational’ when it suddenly hit me.Why the hell do I bother about blog stats.To care about comments is fine but to think too much of cold numbers which may or may not have face to them is madness.
Let us have a peek into my irrational behaviour.Since morning I look at the blog stats twice and by afternoon I am worried that no one has even looked at my blog today.When I click the refresh button as if out of nowhere a number of views appear.This is the point when my blog was on Alphainventions reading cycle.Now out of these views there could be chinese,peruvian,saudi and russin bloggers who have no choice but to look at my blog since it is on thier computer screens.As some of the posts are in English they may even try jumping from one post to another to find something of interest but will certainly leave the blog,never to come back again.
Have you ever counted how many people you met in the market ?How many people looked at you while you were shopping?How many joggers passed by you while jogging in the park ?Or who else came to watch the movie ?
It is irrational therefore to keep submitting your blog and Alpha inventions or Condron in the hope of getting more readership to increase page views.But we are predictable bloggers and will continue to do it again and again.One day we may get a 1000 page views and the other day we may get just 50.
That’s the way we are programed or wired I should say – to measure everything.Even our performance on blogs which are meant to take us away ‘from these things.If your blog not have adequate number of hits or commenst you start getting a feeling of being wasted and a secret voice says don’t do this.This explains the thousands of blogs with just a couple of posts.
You will find 100’s of posts and commenst about ‘How to increase blog traffic’ and how to use technology make your blog better and more attractive but very few which will give you tips on how to post exceptional or unique content .I even came across a personal blog that wanted to make money through adsense the very first month of coming into existance.It may have been an experiment but I found it quite interesting.
For now I have a promised to myself that I will not look at my blog stats for the next 1 month.
But promises are meant to be broken.Are’nt they 🙂
I am currently recieving traffic from 2 blog search engines :
While it is encouraging to see the number of hits on my blog shoot up,I have observed that the number of comments have dwindled.It could very well be an indicator of interest that fellow bloggers have in the content I have to offer but it is also surprising that with so many views per day,its suddenly become so hard to get folks talking.Can someone answer this ?
It is said that the journey of a thousand miles begins with one small step.And most of the times it is that one step that we do not take and watch life as it passes us by.Been thinking of putting my thoughts somehwere but was not aware that such a beautiful medium exists.I have been alive for close to 37 years now and from the time my head started registering I have gone through a lot of stuff – mostly good,but sometimes bad too.Have seen the best of times and the worst of times.There is this strange thing that happens as you reach 40 – a compelling urge to share what life has taught you.I am sure each experience is unique,another scene in the vast human drama but like in any other play the importance of any character cannot be gauged before it all ends.Hope that my part is a memorable one at least for the ones who give a damn !
So be with me while I pour my heart out ..
Dil hi to hai na sang-o-Khisht dard se bhar na aaye kyon ?
Royenge hum hazaar baar, koi hamein sataaye kyon ?
[ sang = stone, Khisht = brick ]
Qaid-e-hayaat-o-band-e-GHam asl mein dono ek hain,
Maut se pehle aadmee gham se nijaat paaye kyon ?
[ hayaat = life, band-e-Gham = concealed sorrows,
nijaat = release/liberation ]
It was once told to me that the idea of freedom is not inherent to human form.We are not even free to determine what thought is going to come to our mind next.I tested the argument very carefully and to my despair found it to be true.From that time on my struggle has been my own, a continous and unending strife with my own saints and demons.Good is but a reflection of evil in the sense that it gives it the meaning it is supposed to have.They are relative and so go hand in hand.I have recognised that no one is entirely good or completely evil,its the state of mind that rules.
So how do I communicate with you ?
I will try and take a thought and share my views on it. We are but a product of our conditioning.Are’nt we ?And yes to begin with I will only share what falls in the realm of good.Will need more courage to discuss the evil in me.